so.
where was I the last time i posted?
god. dating in the gay world is like dating on crack.
well. i guess this makes sense. i mean i do live on vivarin (heeyyyy jesse spano) and vodka.
but thats besides the point.
so i guess i left off where i had a date with swede and 8 pack in the week.
so swede.
great guy. went to thai tanic. then got gelato and walked around for 45 minutes. was fine. but when i was asking him about himself, like helloooo, you are from sweden. tell me everything. he was unnecessarily vague. like i had to ask him multiple times about what his family was like. and not that he said anything negative about his family, they sounded perfectly fun and great. it was like he just didnt share that information ever.
and the conversation kept going back to work. he works in IT for the govt too. granted he's on the technical side. and im on the managerial side. and for some reason our pay rate got brought up. which i found super awkward, altho working for the govt this is a totally common thing, i just really dont like it. but it was even more awkward when we realized we were the same rate. and he's 8 years older than me. anywho.
go back to his place. luckily he had his fan on, it was dusty and my contacts were going crazy. i think he could tell i just wasnt feeling it. i mean i should prolly give him another shot. but i dunno. im just not feeling it.
so 8 pack. we're texting. we meet up for drinks. have a really good time. he stays over and we cuddle. nothing serious. im lame, but i like that.
that weekend i have my housewarming. i invite him. which had the potential to be super awkward because not only was he there, but i also invited pink sock.
maybe because im partially lesbian and think its fun to invite different people im dating/hooking up with to the same social function?
maybe because i like creating my own personal version of hell?
maybe because im just dumb.
anywho. was surprisingly not awkward. even though in front of both of them, random friend, we shall call WASP (you know who you are) referenced the blog in front of both of them and asked who my date of the week was not knowing that 8 pack and pink sock were both right next to us. and then when i gave him a blank stare he asked me louder as though i had not heard him the first time.
oh. and 8 pack was asked by a friend how he knew me, and he responded in front of pink sock that 'he had gone on a date with rick.mark.steve earlier in the week.'
fun times.
but pink sock went out with the entire crew later. was buying me drinks. was super nice. but like all up on my junk and i dont want that.
so i had to pull the 'got sick in the bathroom' card and bailed. it was bad.
but it worked.
so since that weekend...its been like a week and a half.
8 pack and i have been texting. monday he met up with me and some friends at jr's for showtunes then slept over. he came over tuesday night to hang out for a few and just sleep over. then thursday i was having a particularly bad day at work and was grumpy. he took me to a quick dinner and paid (and he's a student, so i thought that was nice) to cheer me up. then i went over later that night and slept at his place and met his roommates. i also was texting with him and said thanks for cheering me up, i need to take you on an official date this weekend. and he was like, what, are the other dates we've been on fake?
which won major bonus points.
but we went out sunday day. i decide to take him to my favorite restaurant, the sou'wester at mandarin oriental. and im going to point out things that are kind of negative, but overall wasnt...just need to paint the full picture. he makes a comment about never going to the waterfront becuase he doesnt do that. and im like, dude, its still northwest. calm down. but he genuinely enjoyed lunch. said it was amazing (clearly).
and while at lunch, we had a few conversation points that were interesting. like he's not close to his family. he feels as though he has nothing in common with them, which i found odd. i think there's some things there he brushes over because he doeesn't want to deal with them, but it was a little off-putting still. also, there were something about his friends, and babies, and other things that his statements were just so extreme. like i dont notice children. they shouldnt exist.
which in all fairness, is something i would say. but i would say it to be outrageous and expect people to judge me and then id clearly show i was kidding.
but anywho. about the conversation. it flows well. we laugh. we joke. etc. but theres just a lot of things that he talks about that i dont know if its his personality traits coming out or youth. like are these statements something maturity and experience will change or is this really who he is? i dont know. i mean i know i was different two years ago until i had to really enter the real world.
but so after lunch, i had planned to do paddle boats on the tidal basin. cute right?
yeah. he was like, i dont really feel like doing that.
so we went to go see the kids are all right instead.
i mean. i guess i should have just made him do it. but i feel like if someone makes plans for something on a date, unless you are like vehemently opposed to it, you do it, right?
just totally threw me off.
so i'm at a cross roads with this boy. do i actually see if its worth it and keep going on dates...i mean we're prolly at like 10 hangouts at this point. or do i call it quits?
he definitely shows a lot of interest. he's got a ridiculous body. i'm attracted to him. but i still dont understand with his weird dieting and gym obsession why he's interested in me. i just dont get it really.
he has been trying to hang out each night this week. i kinda wanted some alone time. so i sorta pushed him off. i am gonna have dinner with him tomorrow night at my place. we'll see how it goes.
tonight after bocce im gonna hang out with another boy i met online. getting drinks to say heyyyy. so i'm still not committing to 8 pack.
and i have a long weekend away at the lake in wisconsin (thurs-tuesday). so i'll try and think things through and update you all more fully on whats going on in my head.
i feel like i have a lot to figure out.