Yesterday's date showed up almost a half hour late. He did call to say he was late. He's nice, but talked about work too much. I also learned random things about his food allergies that I think would have been better saved for a second date. Likewise, I had to take control of every situation - where to eat, talking to the host, the server, etc. The server was actually giving me bedroom eyes during the date. I think he could see my boredom.
I wonder if there is something about weaving online life into dating that causes people to move more quickly in terms of the getting to know you stuff. Like Tuesday's date - he kept wanting to know what I wanted, desperate for me to ask him questions. And yesterday, the guy asked me about my parents' divorce, which inevitably brought up the death of my father. He asked how he died. Tres gauche.
This, and recent exchanges with the Republican and the Vet are making me want to withdraw into myself. I'm not sure I'm going to be able to - emotionally - actively seek a date. I think I'm looking forward too much and not accepting my current situation. I can't just pick up where the Republican and I left off (with him or anyone) and be that close to settling down. I need to get over that and the anger around that first I think. Honestly, at this point, even if I were that close to settling down or what not, I don't know if I'd be able to trust it.
Lunch - he paid, no subsequent contact on his part
