So I signed up for an online dating site. I think I've already written about that. And I "winked" at this dude earlier this week. Since then we have emailed back and forth 36 times. 36 times! That is ridiculous, don't you think? I think it is, yet I've participated in the ridiculocity. Until I counted today (like a Sesame Street regular) I didn't realize we had emailed so much.
Because there was so much back and forth and I had a fear it was getting to the point where it couldn't be a real thing in real life I suggested that we meet in person. I literally only have about 90 minutes free this weekend but because the fourth dude canceled on me I have a bit of time. So I asked him out for a drink tomorrow night and he wrote back and asked what I was looking for. And I answered. Honestly. I think I probably broke every dating rule in the book. But I am a bad dater, that's my M.O. I've always been a bad dater, why break the trend? I talked about love before I even met the dude. That has to be wrong, right? Anyway, I felt the need to share the email because it's kind of embarrassing and I feel the need to use the blog to keep myself in check. So this is what I wrote:
It may sound cheesy and cliche but I'm looking for love. For the guy that I can live without but would rather not. That being said, I just got out of a serious relationship at the beginning of July and I don't know how ready I am to jump into something. I just signed up for OKCupid last week so I could "put myself out there". I don't think I thought any farther than that...
I can tell you what I don't want. I am not looking for someone that has a girlfriend or a wife or wants something sexually casual. Becoming friends, hanging out and getting to know someone better slowly is one thing and I'd be interested in that. Casual sex partners isn't something I'm into. I'm not saying you are, but I thought I'd throw it out there in case that was a question.
How about you? What are you looking for?
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And that is what I wrote. Not sure if I should be embarrassed or proud. Not sure if he'll write back. Or if he'll want to meet up. Not sure about a lot. I am only sure that I was truthful and I *want* to be ready to find love. Oh and I know that I am not looking for someone who wants to grab my arm and use a rat sighting as a line...
