The August 1 churning deadline is fast approaching and I am starting to panic. I am firmly practicing "fake it 'til you make it" and it is keeping me busy. I am still really optimistic and excited but I wish I could keep the sad at bay.
I'm not sure I'm ready to date but I know that I never will be unless I start. My friends tell me it's always hard to go on a first date after you've had your heart broken so I figured I would bite the bullet and just do it.
I signed up for an online dating site but I was stil worried that I wouldn't have a date for the first week. I am a woman of my word *and* I did say I would have a date the first week in August so I signed up for speed dating. Again. Shoot me. In the face. It sounds miserable (especially because I don't particularly want to date now anyway) but I see it as jumping in the deep end of the pool or ripping the bandaid off with one swift motion. Whichever cliche you prefer, I figure it's a good way to join the dating scene again.
Then a guy from the online dating site asked me out. And then another one did. Jeesh when it rains it pours - watch - I will have no dates two weeks from now. But for now I have two dates plus speed dating all scheduled for this weekend. I'll try and post about all of it. And I will continue to "fake it 'til I make it". I'm looking forward to when it is just plain fun.
